Life is hard..
It's bitter, sometimes sweet. But most of time it's bitter..
You can choose the way to face it. Either seriously or not.
Me? I choose the latter. Not because I'm not a serious one but it's a principle. It's so exhausting when you have to face everything seriously. Although maybe people will think that you're a wise person. But for me, I don't need a hundred people calling me wise. I just need to be happy.
Sarcastic comment always make me feel better. Some people take it seriously and make me feel uncomfortable. But I can't blame them too. Everyone comes from different place. It influences them much.
But for me, the more sarcastic it is, the better it would be. Since sometimes people out there do something unimportant and make everyone else angry. I don't like to show my anger but yes I like sarcastic comment better than anything else!
Selasa, 30 November 2010
Jumat, 26 November 2010
I Will Never Stop to Try It
One thing that I always wish in this life is being someone who can give something to the world. Not to change the world or make a history but to show my gratitude to the Creator. I always believe that God creates us for a reason and it’s our job to find that reason.
I used to think that someone who can give something to the world is someone who never or barely fails. And based on that understanding, i started to see myself. I found that I fell down so many times. I’ve ever been on top though but no one cares about your success when you fall down. You must know what I saw then.. I was only an ordinary little girl. No special thing about me.
But the best teacher in this world is the great people. I mean the real great people. Ones that always know how to be optimist, see themselves clearly, and always think twice to blame somebody else. They teach me that no matter how many times you fall down or feel like an idiot, you will always be you. I have to say this sentence loudly to myself... ‘I WILL ALWAYS BE ME’. The point is basically we were created same, with eyes to see, ears to hear, heart to pump the blood, and brain to think. What makes us different is the experience. Experience to be on the lowest and highest place, also the feeling to be in the middle. If Valentino didn’t fall so many times in his first season of GP500cc, he wouldn’t be the champion in the next season. But he always tries and I ALSO DON'T WANNA STOP TO TRY!
When you fall down, you learn how to stand up again in a better way. This is what I'm trying hard to learn now. Sometimes the system makes everything become so difficult and all you have to do is handling it well or at least trying to survive in the best way you can do. Life is a mystery. I lay my life on God’s hands. I don't wanna underestimate or overestimate myself anymore. Life becomes greater when we stop to take too much and start to give as much as we can.
I used to think that someone who can give something to the world is someone who never or barely fails. And based on that understanding, i started to see myself. I found that I fell down so many times. I’ve ever been on top though but no one cares about your success when you fall down. You must know what I saw then.. I was only an ordinary little girl. No special thing about me.
But the best teacher in this world is the great people. I mean the real great people. Ones that always know how to be optimist, see themselves clearly, and always think twice to blame somebody else. They teach me that no matter how many times you fall down or feel like an idiot, you will always be you. I have to say this sentence loudly to myself... ‘I WILL ALWAYS BE ME’. The point is basically we were created same, with eyes to see, ears to hear, heart to pump the blood, and brain to think. What makes us different is the experience. Experience to be on the lowest and highest place, also the feeling to be in the middle. If Valentino didn’t fall so many times in his first season of GP500cc, he wouldn’t be the champion in the next season. But he always tries and I ALSO DON'T WANNA STOP TO TRY!
When you fall down, you learn how to stand up again in a better way. This is what I'm trying hard to learn now. Sometimes the system makes everything become so difficult and all you have to do is handling it well or at least trying to survive in the best way you can do. Life is a mystery. I lay my life on God’s hands. I don't wanna underestimate or overestimate myself anymore. Life becomes greater when we stop to take too much and start to give as much as we can.
Leaving
Watching the clock on the wall
Been a while since you’ve called
I cant help but wait
It’s late and i cant get into sleep
Something’s different this time
It just doesnt feel right
Have we broken in two?
Am i really gonna lose you tonight?
You come walking in
Tears in your eyes
Pretending like its alright
But i know you’re leaving
I know that smile
I can tell you’ve been crying
You’re gonna say goodbye
I wish i could stop you but you’ve made up your mind
I beg you dont go
But i already know you’re leaving
Where does the time go?
Between goodbye and hello
How did we come to this? Is there something we missed
Along the way
With your bag at the door
I wanna pull you in close
And hold you once more even though
Chorus
Here comes the sleepless nights
Here comes the tears im gonna cry
Here comes the last goodbye leaving us behind
Oh this cant be right
Chorus to end
One thing I never like in this life is saying goodbye. We often use that word everyday though. Parents go to work, children go to school, children go home from school, end up conversation with boyfriend on phone at night, finish the lecture or party, etc. For them above, we always say goodbye. So, whats the point then? I say it everyday but i never like goodbye. Is it only because I see it from different point of view? Maybe. Sometimes a word feels stronger when we put a tension on it. You know, how many ‘hello’ do we say everyday? And can u still feel the difference between the usual hello and hello to an old friend that u havent met for a long time? Or maybe with ur ex boyfriend? I bet the sensation is much different and so is with goodbye.
Mr. Goodbye is one of my favorite Korean dramas. It was a sad ending drama. I cried a lot when i watched it. The dying man in this film never said goodbye directly to his girlfriend. In his heart, he wanted to stay for one more hour to be with his lover. This story is much different with the one that I recently read. I have just read Tuesdays with Morrie. Morrie wasnt afraid to say goodbye and he did it in a special way. He put Mitch’s hand on his chest, right on his heart, and said ‘this is goodbye’. Well, I know that u can see the difference. Hyun Seoh wanted to live as he had found what he’d been longing for whereas Morrie was so willing to let his soul go since he had enjoyed his own life. There are many ways to leave this world but for me there are only 2 choices. You can beg for a bit longer life or you accept ur death without fighting.
I always wanna be Morrie. I wanna die without regret. Morrie shew me the way. In order to get a willingness like he once had, I have to enjoy every breathe that I take. It seems so cliche, easy, and ignored but if you really do it, you will know that Morrie was right. Well, i’ll make it simple. Have you ever thought to go back to the past? Have u ever envied someone younger? If so, ask to yourself then, why? For me, I also ever felt the same, it was because I felt that there was something missing in my past. One thing that I wasnt brave enough to do. Something that I never ask clearly to someone. Something that I could’ve never had again. One thing that I always feel sorry for till today. And that something missing has made me to be someone like Hyun Seoh. I substitute something I never have with something else and it doesnt satisfy me in any way. I think I’ve become frozen for some things. For exampe, I never let myself give a second chance for man. How pity I am.
I know its hard to pure myself anymore. But I still have choices for the way I die and I’ve decided to die without regret. The way I leave must be the best way I can do. So from now on, I promise to myself to enjoy every second I have. I havent been able to make it perfectly yet but we’re all learning. Dont get me wrong, I’m not depressed ;p. I just wanna tell you that death isnt that evil, it can be a present for some people. And i wanna be a part of those lucky people.
Byeee.. See you later!
Been a while since you’ve called
I cant help but wait
It’s late and i cant get into sleep
Something’s different this time
It just doesnt feel right
Have we broken in two?
Am i really gonna lose you tonight?
You come walking in
Tears in your eyes
Pretending like its alright
But i know you’re leaving
I know that smile
I can tell you’ve been crying
You’re gonna say goodbye
I wish i could stop you but you’ve made up your mind
I beg you dont go
But i already know you’re leaving
Where does the time go?
Between goodbye and hello
How did we come to this? Is there something we missed
Along the way
With your bag at the door
I wanna pull you in close
And hold you once more even though
Chorus
Here comes the sleepless nights
Here comes the tears im gonna cry
Here comes the last goodbye leaving us behind
Oh this cant be right
Chorus to end
One thing I never like in this life is saying goodbye. We often use that word everyday though. Parents go to work, children go to school, children go home from school, end up conversation with boyfriend on phone at night, finish the lecture or party, etc. For them above, we always say goodbye. So, whats the point then? I say it everyday but i never like goodbye. Is it only because I see it from different point of view? Maybe. Sometimes a word feels stronger when we put a tension on it. You know, how many ‘hello’ do we say everyday? And can u still feel the difference between the usual hello and hello to an old friend that u havent met for a long time? Or maybe with ur ex boyfriend? I bet the sensation is much different and so is with goodbye.
Mr. Goodbye is one of my favorite Korean dramas. It was a sad ending drama. I cried a lot when i watched it. The dying man in this film never said goodbye directly to his girlfriend. In his heart, he wanted to stay for one more hour to be with his lover. This story is much different with the one that I recently read. I have just read Tuesdays with Morrie. Morrie wasnt afraid to say goodbye and he did it in a special way. He put Mitch’s hand on his chest, right on his heart, and said ‘this is goodbye’. Well, I know that u can see the difference. Hyun Seoh wanted to live as he had found what he’d been longing for whereas Morrie was so willing to let his soul go since he had enjoyed his own life. There are many ways to leave this world but for me there are only 2 choices. You can beg for a bit longer life or you accept ur death without fighting.
I always wanna be Morrie. I wanna die without regret. Morrie shew me the way. In order to get a willingness like he once had, I have to enjoy every breathe that I take. It seems so cliche, easy, and ignored but if you really do it, you will know that Morrie was right. Well, i’ll make it simple. Have you ever thought to go back to the past? Have u ever envied someone younger? If so, ask to yourself then, why? For me, I also ever felt the same, it was because I felt that there was something missing in my past. One thing that I wasnt brave enough to do. Something that I never ask clearly to someone. Something that I could’ve never had again. One thing that I always feel sorry for till today. And that something missing has made me to be someone like Hyun Seoh. I substitute something I never have with something else and it doesnt satisfy me in any way. I think I’ve become frozen for some things. For exampe, I never let myself give a second chance for man. How pity I am.
I know its hard to pure myself anymore. But I still have choices for the way I die and I’ve decided to die without regret. The way I leave must be the best way I can do. So from now on, I promise to myself to enjoy every second I have. I havent been able to make it perfectly yet but we’re all learning. Dont get me wrong, I’m not depressed ;p. I just wanna tell you that death isnt that evil, it can be a present for some people. And i wanna be a part of those lucky people.
Byeee.. See you later!
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